I've done the work for you. Because you don't seem to understand any of the following 1. Respect 2. Being Civil 3. Not taking something to one extreme or the other 4. Removing the stick from your ass long enough to have a decent conversation. 5. Refusal to deal with anything you don't want to, in face avoiding or running from it 6. Yet then demanding my attention.
You will find 'getting a hold of me' limited to very few, if any ways, mostly because blocking someone on them is a PITA, if not a option at all. You will no longer see anything on any format, period
LJ - Unless it's a public post, they are rare AIM YIM MSN Myspace Spin Facebook Twitter
Pretty much the only ways right now I can't block, or would have a PITA time doing so (aka would require I upset a lot of people, or become contactable by people I WANT to), is My phone (because VZ only allows # changes, not # blocking)
I really have no care for your response to this, as you've proven an inablilty to see past the end of your nose, while shoving the stick even farther up your ass.
Edited, because I CAN block twitter, it might effect my LJ tweets though.
Laura just YIMed me saying Cece wants to know if I'm packing. I guess her 3 days or so now in Iso she has not, stoped, screaming.
Her meds are in, and she's on them, but she is not happy about being in iso one iota. Laura wants to give her to me ASAP, and is encouraging me to get my crap out of here ASAP so I can have her. Oy! Pooor kitten :-/, does remind me I have to figure out when I REALLY think I can get my stuff moved. I'd rather sooner if I can figure it out, but with work I'm not sure if I CAN work it in before next week. I plan to try if I can feasably figure a time frame where I have 8 hours, that won't interfear with sleep, to get things moved from A to B
That was, the weirdest dream I have EVER, had... I am so confused at this point, I want to know WTF my brain was doing to dream /that/ up. As well as why I felt pain a few times, in it. Not even the same body part (like if I was laying on something wrong and it fell asleep).
“I've decided that this counselor's good. I'm still short. I don't even realize until I leave her office half of which she's done to try to pry stuff out of me and it works. It's kind of cute. She well the kind of example I have is she was going over a couple of things like high school and such and I would go off counting on something and she just smiled and nod and I could completely grasping on something so I'm nagging on this to avoid telling her about something and she's ok now going back to this and all of a sudden we'd be back to where it was I was uncomfortable and I started to go over to Brian. So I'd side tracked and she'd let me side track a little bit and then after I finished she should told it ok and back to this and she would re tell this and after I basically they emptied my avenues an they're allowed to go through my avenues to try to avoid but it's got we been brought back to it. I made it all luxure(?) and then she'd address the whole issue as a whore and then once I realized she knew that the whole issue was. It wouldn't suddenly it wasn't a big deal to talk about it any more and so I I really like her. I've been kind I guess lucky that I have ___ I found something that I like but I can ___ this counselor is good and I I do believe that she's gonna help with a lot of good cos she's coming in up with a lot of series and a lot of things that could and make sense. So yeah writing a good ___ love me but upset.”
2 Bendryl 1 Ambient (pending I can find the bottle, it ran away) Whatever Rum is left in my blood (not much, if any) Aleve
Holding off on the Midrin, will use it if the Aleve doesn't head off the start of this migraine (right now it's a mild headache), also have either nyquil or tylonoel PM, both are going on the backburner because I don't know if they do the same as Ambient and the goal tonight is pass the fuck out and don't wake up until dawn, NOT, pass the fuck out and don't wake up, ever. (The above 3 medications, not the booze, are all OKAYED by doctor and pharmacist and past experience they won't interact with my day to day meds)
Plus I have my daily pills in my system Zoloft (Generic) Alysa (or something close to that spelling, generic)
This is a list just in case I don't wake up for osme reason, I don't forsee that happening for reasons listed above, but just in case someone gets a call from the paramedics, the above is what can be handed over as to what might be rolling around in my blood.
This post brought to you by someone on the edge of a panic attack, and just wanting to pass the fuck out but knows insomnia won't let her so she's taking everything that the doctors have told her to take that won't interact to try to make sleepy fun land come before the hell on earth panic attack.
Are, interesting when ones mind gives up and sleeps.
I'd post it but, it was so odd I'm not sure I could even correctly write it down, however it made me miss an old friend deeply and wish I knew what she was up to (found her at one point but then she deleted her myspace like a month later)
“Don't ask me why I'm giving a voice postcard than torture(?) or whatever for that's because I guess I just realized I get for free post I'm on gonna voice why not. I really guess it's just ___ hate Dan(?) ___ be fine I guess I had to say it somewhere so I guess I'm gonna say it here because I hope nobody reads(?) out of all it than fine guys. I'll be fine once I get some sleep. I just I'm tired of counting progressive notes. I'm tired of all of the shit. Here I would but I actually think you will ask to leave but I was doing the turning point and kinda distressing do everything better but I guess not. I think I'm just gonna have a terrible week because of all, I'm gonna go head first the true panic it's active can't already toward pretty close. Like a little ___ and go see if I can take Benadryl or and the answer something enough in my has soup. I could have telling and don't think of any till I might get sleep tonight.”
“Ok I've been trying to found out on one thing that can woke me up when I'm tired and have a headache from hell. That would be up to driving for about 15 minutes tomorrow night has been to other damn car and either direction having been one top blame 20 minutes before and that's what's it. And nobody is been behind cent oh we look up and make tee. There's a head light to that, there's coming up pretty fast kinda look up again headlights to go to brighter. Anyway I get close enough for to realize it's on my believe car and except little blue and red lights flashing between the flash 2headlights and all of the only two light of flashing so of course. I didn't see if still was really fucking close and I'm going a shit on my hit all over know. I was the not change land for the absolutely no reason. I'm here to pulled over, why the hell is this cop come up on wake up. You know should I holler whatever but it's not functioning. Anyways I hit my fore flusher so I don't get my ass full over for notes and turn signals again and hit the shoulder. Almost up my cell phone at dish because my reflex's out shot when I'm in pain and again this one cos it might. The number one thank God his not turn to pull me over some at you. I I'm still doing about 50 on the shoulder for the somewhere in there I need to get my ass flow down and of that I could ___ stay and get my ass back on the roads. All ___ jumps out and I sitting just feeling. Ok. I'm awake and I'm still not coordinated. If you get doesn't cops will held me going towards the Cambridge. Lovely I'm going to pick Heather up in the Cambridge. Anyways I know how ___ my cell phone now apparently and I'm tired of that cops down here.”
Probably need to get back, laptop still has like an hour left of battry and I'm sure there is a plug in somewhere but I don't want my pop to freeze and I have things to clean, and laundry to do...
That and public is quickly going to migraine and I'd like to not have to take my brand new meds for it...
Oh and apparently my Miquin became a new name some point, Pills are the exact same, to the printing on the pill. However the new name it's under is a long ass genaric name, under it is says 'genaric for Midrin" so... it renamed sometime in the last 8 years.
Odd, but whatcha going to do? It's the same stuff.
Oh I think I forgot to mention my Doc must not be sure about this stuff, because she took my "every 30" and tried to tell me "every hour" and cautioned more then 2 wasn't really good.. she did leave max dose at 4
I didn't feel like arguing that the bottle I had was older, because mom condensed it but the 'newer' stuff I had before I stopped refilling it was prescribed at every 15 or as needed, max of 4.
I'll try it her way, if I have a mild migraine where I can wait sometime, otherwise I don't really think it's fair for her to make the time between longer, she's a PA, she's trying to overide the directions of a NEUROLOGIST. Um sorry, I know she's a doctor in all forms other then she can't do pre-op exams or operations... HOWEVER Mr. Neurologist went to school a lot longer, did a lot more tests, and found the only thing that worked for me so... K thanks, I'll stick with what he said unless having a not-sevral-years-old RX knocks me on my ass with it's potancy.
However now sound sensativity is kicking in and I don't want to push it to the point I throw up the dinner I just had so... home I go...
I am amused, for once I hold a key card in my hand until direct TV catches up...
Kim did not do anything, she was sick so I can partly see she probably just slept all week. Ironic that I took 7 days off, she got 5 off with being sick.
She is really sick, I feel bad that she is as sick as she is. However it still puts me in a bad spot. I have no internet, she has no TV. I however, have TV, how I'm still trying to figure out. Best I can figure, it's either because my box was off when the disconnect notices came in. My box never was told shut off so.. it never did! I spent the night fearful to change the channel in the fear a ping to change it would gain me loss of the only connection to me sanity left. Today I got tierd of Nick, and changed it with my heart in my toes at the potentail loss of the last shred of connection. It worked!
I have a few theroeys on why, not sure if either is right or not. A) Box was off while they Disconnect notice(s) went though. They have some backasswards setup where requesting the channels doesn't ping a request for service. B) My box was activated later, long story but it was a weke or two after service it was put on, this ment I had to call and have a new activation signel sent. This either .1) Means my box is lagging a week behind, because it's set up starting a week or two later. I doubt this in terms of non payment BUT it's the first thing that came to mind. .2) My box, or # or whatever, the CSR jimmyed activation in some overide that was not taken off or somesuch, and with an automatic diconnect rather then a hard one, my box is happly still giving me the goodness that is TV.
I expect any moment for it to cut off, or I turn it on and it goes "No TV FOR YOU" however in the mean time, it's my little secrate because I don't want my box kidnapped or my room invaded by TV starved roomates that caused the problem in the first place. For once, for however long this good will graces me, I have the power!
However the big reason I've been praying for it to work, is my desktop CD drives are -dead-.
One jammed, I un jammed it and pulled out the wad of hair that did it. It still no worked, the motor I think burned out, it tries but it doesn't have the power to move the tray, that I can easly slide in and out with my fingers The second one that ALWAYS have been wonky, when the top one went kaput also did. This does not suprise me because it never opened unless it felt like it, and if the top one wasn't, heven forbid I try to make it (the case I blame on this, the first few times I tried ot use it the case didn't swing like it was suppoed to out of the way and gave the tray a good few whacks, once a fixed the case it stoped but I think the damage was done).
Anywho I can't play any CD based games(and all my non cd ones are java and on THIS computer), or watch DVD So I cracked and went budget shopping, ended up spending $12 more then I wanted to get HP since... well ask anyone, I've yet to get a non-HP thing for my room, every time I try I find HP cheaper, or only like $5 more and unlike others... my HP's have not died yet on me unless I kill them. SO I ended up downgrading what I normaly get for gorcries this week and used the savings I got to by an external drive. I'm still debating it, but honestly I need a drive for the desktop even if I let it die next time something does down, the external can be transfered to the laptop, new computer, sold, ect. Oh also since I don't have internet I'm saving what I used on WoW that I need to remeber to cancel, that I can put towards that fund too..
Honestly i need a new desktop this one is pushing 5 or 6 years now. Poor thing, the only reason it's still kicking when my others get replaced every 3-4 is that I've upgraded rather then reaplced the parts as they die, or as they become outdated, the only thing not new was the cd drives, and the motherboard stuff.
Ugh so off track now and this thing is like a mile long so I'm going to go check my e-mail and sites and crud, thenmaybe post more.
Oh and anyone wondering the Boingo I picked up to surf at the airport, I went and paid $2 to be able to use it for a month, rather then 7.95 for a day, only at newark (since i thought I'd use it at ohare) and there are lots of hotspots around. Including McDonalds so... here I sit uncomfertable as hell in public but updating because I figured as long as I was out (walmart and dinner) I might as well update via normal means.
anyone that wants moment to moment updates is going to have to watch twitter a while, that or you'll get daily updates here from it, if I post anything to it.
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