Writing in the normal place I do when I have bits of anything that I don't have a home for over on wakeingdreamer.
Oddly it felt good to shake the dust off, but sadly it feels like delving back into a world I can't have again.
Meh, either way, it felt good to write again, and really that's what counts I think.
Now only if the insomnia would go away some time that wasn't when I should be awake, much rather sleep when I should be and be awake in daylight hours, not the other way around.
Oh but Uno in the last few days has turned into a major cuddle bug, that's helped when I can settle to sleep having him curl up on my back has immensely helped in my relaxing and not having nightmares.
It's been a while since I've had a normal dream, it's kinda nice to see I still can, even if it requires something warm and cuddly in my bed, fur and all.
I want to say at the start of this, I adore all my friends, the few I have, and don't want any of you to take this as "OMG I'm scaring her, I can't tell her about last nights tie down party" or whatever.
No no no, I enjoy hearing any and all stories, lifestyles, anything.
However, I seem to have a magnet for attracting the most WTF friends at times.
Again I <3 you all, but just had a older friend contact me I've not talked to in a while and... just wow, haha few new stories under my belt that made me go "... buh? Well if that floats your boat?"
Where do I keep FINDING you people? I mean, I'm starting to think 'normal' is a fairy tail, not that I want to be/find boring old normal people. Just I don't think I have one normal friend out there!
Keep the WTF coming guys, just... yeah, haha, at least I can't say life is ever boring....
I'm lacking updates, bad me, I'll try to fix that soon.
I led a raid tonight, I was reallllly bored, so I went "hey lets do the old staring raid" (Naxx10) for badges, and the guild went, okie as did out collective channel (leftovers).
Somehow I gathered the masses rather then my guild leader (who was going and normally does that) and long story short once gathered I offered him lead or I'd keep it and he was like "meh you gathered them, you do it".
So off we went and pwned the place, only problem was K'lth because we where super melee heavy, but we even got him with some tricks (lucky charms, and pulling a melee off to heal/range dps even though it was his off spec).
Wasn't half bad, decent amount of embs, and it was a REALLY nice casual break from Uld/Toc raiding where one wrong breath wipes the raid, we got to laugh, good around and float at first one alt, then a few more, though loot sponging.
After my GL commented it was really nice to just focus on tanking, be able to goof off, explain only a few things and let me handle loot while he plowed ahead. Guess it lightened the stress off him, and I didn't mind, as while I was worried I'd mess up the whole, time, I really liked doing so and just the lack of stress in a fun run after a long day. Apparently I also got brownie points ++ (not that I need anymore, the guy thinks I'm a saint already), because not once did we butt heads, it was "what do you think" and "how about" when I tweaked groups, or changed dps/healers around, and we brought in new people to replaced the few that had to go. I meshed well, rather then being abrasive, so apparently ... I'm being slotted as the new 'fun run' person every few weeks or something.
Meh, I had fun that was the goal, the rest was cake, that and I keep knocking a friend (Zooozzzy) off the horse by dragging him along with us when he's on and bored XD.
However, I need to set my alarm to get some phone calls made in the morning, before I get bogged down with work in the afternoon and forget, as well as sort my crap and find out what I can sell, out of what is left of it before I go insane and depressive >.<
Yeah, it's been a odd few weeks, I really do need to catch people up...
Everything sucks right now,
I have a birthday in 24 hours, and to be honest, I can't even bring myself to care.
It'll just be another day, in the life that is trying to do everything to make me misraible, and ever so slowly, is managing to do so.
Car still won't start, starting to think it's really dead this time.
Think my puppy has a seizure, I didn't see it but I walked in on his back end still tremoring and then he was VERY sedate for about 1 1/2 hours after it, not like him at all. He's still a bit 'off' but starting back on being a pest.
Oh and, My drink to have fun tonight, snowballed on me about 2 hours into the raid I was on. Wee...
I'd say "fuck me" but, then again I'd probably manged to mess that up somehow, so I'm just going to go ... find something to do that is mindless and might cheer me up.
Or I could get to work and feel like a semi-truck ran me over.
Then my car won't start when they allow me to leave early
Meaning I had to drag my half dead self, home, via walking.
35-40ish mins later, I arrive feeling like I swear I got hit by a few cars on the walk. (No I didn't I just FEEL like it).
Fucccck and I'm going to have to at some point, walk back to fight with the car later, however that can wait until A) I work again or B) I feel healthy and happy (whatever comes first)
Writing, it helped me shake off cobwebs, but I realized... I have no one to show it to.
Bah it seems kinda status quoa though, since it's not edited (still brain storming), and vampire stories (though not a new thing) have hit every major airway. The one I'm working on, is older then the surge in it's publicity, but... it makes me kinda meh about showing it since it's EVERYWHERE, mine's just another drop in the puddle.
Really need to catch up, just been too scatterbrained the last few days.
Only main point I want to make, is my car bit it (or is trying to), it would not start, it wanted to but it just wouldn't.
I'm hoping I can coax i into starting today, and if it does I'm really hoping it'll start again in an hour when I really need to be at work (since if it won't start I need to have an hour to walk it sounds like, just to be safe, though it won't that really that long to walk).
That and I was approved for one of the online things my roommate linked me to, waiting on a second I found, neither will pay what my job does. HOWEVER it means I can earn some spare change and/or if things hit the fan, do something to keep going.
I'm in grr mode, not sure why, but I've manged to piss off too many people in under 15 mins.
Woo -.-, great I'm el crabby on and off my meds, starting to think the meds didn't do anything but suppress the things I like.
Why is it when I don't need it, I have no grace, I'm a walking klutz, ect.
However when I DO need it, I somehow make it though something that should have at LEAST broken something in my body, with little more then hurt pride and what feels like a slightly sore wrist, no more sore then if you bounced off a closing door or some such. Not like sprained/broke sore.
Went to sit in my chair like I always do, and was off balance or something because it pitched back before I was even seated, paniced, realized it was going over too quick to counter it back to normal, and that. There are alot of things to bash my head open on as I go backwards off it... so somehow, I manged hop/ride the fall and end up sitting crosslegged, on the back part of the chair (under my ass), with my hands down on either side. My head if it HAD gone where it was going before I somehow, mid air, saved myself, about a foot from the fridge behind me and my left elbow touching the lamp/my pile of pop bottles.
my right wrist hurts a bit, and I feel like my back should be going "oh god.. I'm not built for you to land like that) but otherwise, I'm fine, nothing hurts no bruises, nothing.
Now how can I do that, but still trip over my own feet while walking across a level floor with nothing on it?
*mutters something intangible and stumbles out the door*